Tuesday, 15 January 2013
Rush, rush, rush. We were rushing to one school to pick one daughter up before we rushed down to the other school to pick up my eldest daughter. Racing along the road. Isla bobbing around in the buggy as we went. And then I looked at her. Really 'looked' at her and I had to stop to drink in her sweet beauty. "Mummy, I'm here and I'm gorgeous and in all your 'busyness' you're missing it!" she said, though not using words of course. "You're right" I thought. "I'll slow down, I'll really look at you and appreciate your 6 month old 'wondrousness".
Such mindfulness is something I am very interested in right now. Being mindful in daily life of what is really important to me, what it is I truly value and being aware of the abundant blessings in my life. Even though I don't want to always admit that I am blessed in so many ways and I just want to have a good old childish tantrum because someone has something that I would like or gets to do something that I want to do. "It's not fair!" I think as I stamp my foot.
In my better moments I am drawn back to the moment, the life I do have as opposed to the life I 'think' I might like. I am drawn back to this precious little creature staring up at me from her buggy, always smiling and pleased to see me. She is a reminder to me to BE HERE NOW. She is my little Buddha, my little Guru in a fluffy pramsuit. "See me, connect with me, because I love you Mummy", she says all of this with her eyes. "I love you too baby, I'm here, I see you." If I do nothing else better today, I have done this, I have really connected with my daughter; it has been a good day.